When things don't really go your way. Don't be despair. When things around you started to change but not you, then don't feel too left out.
I have no idea why is it that I am okay with changes, I understand that it will happened but accepting it, is some times a really hard thing to do.
Some times I felt pressure to want to adapt to the whole changes, that I grab hold of just about anything around me that could help me to be apart of the changes.
So sorry for being indirect but I don't feel like singing my song to the world. I just wanted to get something off the chest. Something thats been bugging me for very long now.
I can tell you this. Most of the time its not fun to be me. Low self esteem and lack of confidence is one of my main weaknesses. This is the thing that always never gets me far in whatever I do.
I can't be in a silence for too long or else I'll be able to see every corner of my life. Some times I hate that, because I start to question myself, and I started to doubt myself.
I know what I can do if I put my heart into it but fear always be the first to greet me.
I just hate the feeling of being so lonely some times. It creeps me, creeps me badly. I'm so scared that I'll managed to learn how to be okay when I detached myself from from friends, from other people and from society.
I'll end up being a true Lonewolf, and wasted my life in the corner of my own loneliness. Emotionally detached from the world. Thats an ugly scenery.
I hate to ramble but I just couldn't help myself. ARGH!
Until next time, see you around my friend =)
Daniel Chiam from room8five